The exhaustion that comes with a brain that refuses to stop

This morning I am feeling exhausted. Last night, my brain for whatever reason, refused to stop and allow a peaceful sleep. This is not uncommon, quite the contrary but last night I would have given anything just for a feew hours of solid sleep.

I did get up on time and take my wife to work then, went off to the gym however, even at the gym this morning I was very uninspired. I only did 10 mins of cardio before deciding I wasn't in the mood however, I did do an hour of weights and pushed myself. Truth be told, I prefer weights over cardio anyday!

Today I need to find some energy and get my house organised. Monday is a day where I catch up on all things called 'housework'. I think also that I will go back to the gym after doing the school run to do 1-2hrs cardio. I am ashamed of how lazy I was this morning.

I have 3 assignments that are due this week, 2 of them being due tomorrow. With any luck I will feel re-energised after doing my cardio workout and will come home full of energy. I am so close to the end of my studies, it is getting a little daunting. I still don't know what job I want to get at the end of finishing my degree. There are so many options, which makes it so difficult to make a decision. That and the fact that I change my mind more than I change my underwear.

After spending a nice lowkey weekend just the 3 of us, routine returns. I HATE routines! I prefer to go with the flow and find it impossible to make arrangements in advance. No matter what I do, I just can't commit to something that is forecast tomorrow and beyond. On the rare occassion where I absolutely have to commit to arrangements made in advance, I usually have several panick attacks leading up to the event and on the way to the event, vomit many times over.

Me and spontineity do not mix.